Groove Back

I’ve been off for a while now.  I don’t mean “off” as in from work.  I mean off has in my productivity level, my overall mental health, and relationships with other people.

This week, I feel like my groove is coming back, but even more so today.  I felt like I took the day by the balls, so to speak, and made it my own.

I have a MAJOR deadline coming up on Friday for work.  This deadline has been looming over me since March (I believe).   This deadline has the following things due.

  • Scope and Sequence (the day to day objectives for my teachers to teach next year) for grades 3 – 6
    • Example of what one of these looks likeScreen Shot 2017-05-17 at 9.32.54 PM
    • So picture this for every day there is a lesson to be taught.  To be exact there’s 105 per grade for next year.  Those have been done for a few weeks now.
  • All Benchmark assessments for the entire year.  5 per grade level.  These are not an easy thing to due.   I couldn’t even start these until the Scopes and Sequences were finished.  Once those were finished, I had to fill out this tab, on the same document that is pictured aboveScreen Shot 2017-05-17 at 9.34.22 PM
    • You can see that as the tests go into the year, they get longer as the year goes.  These are the same type of history tests we took as kids either.  They are tough and massive, and not by my choice.  I go by the requirement of the state.

That being said, I have completed all of the Scopes and Sequences for grades 3-8, and all of my assessments for 3-7.  I should note that Grades 6 and 7, do not have Benchmark 5 in my networks system yet, because they are a state released test, so I don’t have to have those in there, but they are formatted and ready to go.  The same will happen with 8th grade.

I’m sitting at 2 days to basically write 4 tests, and then I’m done with them.  They are considered “Draft” forms until my teachers vet them throughout the year next year, but they are off my back.

I’ve spent the last few weeks working from home, because the amount of space I needed to spread out while working on these tests.  This has been nice, because when I need a brain break, I can do random stuff around the house that I wouldn’t normally be able to do if I was at the office or another location.

So today, when I needed a break from the computer, I completed all of mine and my husband’s laundry (including folded and put away), the towels (folded and put away), washed our sheets and blanket and remade the bed.  Swept my living room, kitchen, and bedroom (gotta love hardwood floors), and then went over them with hardwood floor cleaner.

Needles to say, I feel accomplished today.  I feel like I’m sitting good coming in to this deadline that has been a major stressor for me for weeks.  Unsure if I was going to get it done because I have been so mentally off.

Since I made that post the other day about lower my expectations, it has helped tremendously.  I’m assuming that I just need to do it myself and not rely on someone else. Which at times can suck, but I also know that if I do it, it will get done and I can rest easier.

Let’s hope I can keep this momentum going, because I feel like myself.  I feel like my nickname that my coworkers have given me, “The Beast.”  And I haven’t felt like that for a very long time.

Today, this was me!

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Workload

This came up on my Facebook feed just now, and it’s 100% true.

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I’m currently juggling my workload for prep for next school year.  I know it seems early, but the more I can get down before teachers return in July the better.   I’m also juggling my school work for my EdS degree. Then you have being a mom and a wife on top of that.

At times, my brain is running on some many different things I get worked up on what I should actually be working on.  I get torn a lot between doing one thing over the other and that’s when the anxiety kicks in.

I’m still feeling good, although today I’m a bit on the tired side.  I’ve got the front door open, my windows open, and working from the couch.  Not in the mood to be around people today, but my mood and spirit is still better than it has been for a while.

Next week we are going on a little trip in state to get away for Spring Break, and I am looking forward to getting away.  In addition I get to spend a few days with my best friend.  Haven’t seen him since the beginning of March, so that’s a plus as well.

Today I’m going to close some of these tabs and make some head way on my workload for work and then try and conquer some work for class later.

Do Over

Finding myself in a similar headspace this morning as I was yesterday.  So today, I changed my desktop background on my computer to this: 


It’s true. And it helped turn my day around.  Every time I look at my desktop I would laugh and get back to work. 

I had my standard Monday meeting and was actually at my office. I went in feeling great. I’ve managed to accomplish 1/2 of my workload that is due by May 19. Then I get a copy of the official schedule for next school year, and there were significant changes.  My heart dropped. I now have to go back and re do the work I already did. 

I’m trying to not get myself worked up over it. But it’s rather frustrating because I try to get ahead and then have to redo it because things change. The rest of my coworkers, were not upset because they hadn’t started yet. 

The bright side I just have to copy and paste into the updated format, so it couldn’t be worse. 

Tonight I shall sit down with my computer, favorite drink and snacks, and Netflix it up while I copy and paste.

Coffee Shop

I’m lucky enough to have an amazing job with a flexible work schedule and work location. I have a desk in an office, but why work there when I can work anywhere. So I’m at my desk once a week for my weekly meeting with my boss and fellow coworkers. 

Most mornings I work from a local coffee shop. I arrive at 8am and leave at noon.  I have my booth that I sit in, and the baristas check in on me frequently.  It’s to the point where if I’m not there for a day or two they ask if I was okay when I come back.  I’m known by my name and they start making my drink when I walk in the door. It’s comforting. 

My husband, who is a writer, comes with me. We enjoy our walk to the coffee shop, work on our own work, and then walk back home to enjoy lunch together.  

It’s a nice change of pace from my previous gig.  I should mention that I’m in education and was a classroom teacher for 12 years and I LOVED every minute of it. But… my freedom wasn’t in play. I had to be at work by x time, stay til x time and worked A LOT at home and on the weekends.  Now I develop the curriculum my department uses and the tests we use to assess our kids. I have freedom to devote time to my family, and work and not get stressed out. 

There are days were I miss the classroom, but that’s not very often. I love my freedom, and flexibility that this new job (that I’ve had for almost a year) holds. 

Today I worked on planning out teaching sequences for next year and have felt fulfilled and entergized today. 

Happy Friday!