Author Archives: Anxious C

Deceit is Heavy on the Soul

I’m learning that deceit is heavy on the soul.  The longer you let the deceit play out, the more it weighs on you. I came home for the next week.  I wanted, no I needed to see my family.  I’ve … Continue reading

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Homeward Bound

I’m going home in a few days.  I haven’t been home since last Christmas. My parents don’t know I’m without a job. Time to put my game face on.  Hopefully my poker face is a good one. I’ve been applying … Continue reading

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Status Update

I’m not going to lie.  Things have been better.  I’m still without a job, and the hits just keep on coming. The job I was hoping for, I didn’t get.  I was told that they were impressed with me, loved … Continue reading

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The Hurt is Real

NOTE:  I started writing this, and noticed I started rambling.  It’s probably because I’m emotional, slightly elevated on THC oil and my anti-anxiety night time meds I haven’t taken in a while, because I haven’t felt like I needed it. … Continue reading

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Feeling Frustrated

Tomorrow is my birthday. And I’m bitter, angry, and frustrated. I’ve been without a job since July 26th. I’m doing my best to keep my shit together and support my family the best way I know how. I’m tutoring kids … Continue reading

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The thighs… they burn

Before the start of the summer I was working out everyday doing kettle bells. Then the shit hit the fan, so to speak, with work and I stopped. Last night I got back on the workout wagon and today I … Continue reading

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Everything Changes

There is a meditation in the app I use called “Everything Changes.” It’s meant to help those, like myself, with anxiety to deal with things that come up. I’ve done it a few times, but it never did anything for … Continue reading

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