I’m spamming the blog today. But it’s okay. I need to get my thoughts out.
I went into “fuck it” mode after my last post. I’m going to have a good time even if my partner is being an ass. He’s sleeping, my husband and my partners wife are getting all dressed up and headed to a movie together, and I’m chilling like a villain enjoying a tasty adult beverage and watching my favorite baseball team. My son is in bed for the night, so some peace and quiet will be good for me.
I took out my frustrations earlier when we went to the gun range. That was a blast. It’s always nice to take some anxiety and frustration out on a paper target. My husband managed to take a decent picture of me firing one of the pistols.
I’m learning that my anxiety still can control me. But I am doing a better job of controlling it. Today has been a challenge because it’s trying to run my day, but I’m surviving and making the best of a crappy situation.